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22:13 Feb 28 2008
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I got a new job. ^_^ So did John.



We are going to be working for Google doing sales. I'm so excited. We start on Monday and the best part is we can chill online when we aren't on the phone. ^_^

08:39 Feb 26 2008
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So Eca (my new kitten) woke me up this morning by attacking my feet. I would sit up look at her and she would jump back and stare at me. I would lay back down and she would attack my feet again. This wasn't too nice when all I wanted to do is sleep.



BTW her name comes from the game I play. Ecaflips are a class of cat people that gamble. Her name was Lucky when we got her and Ecafilps rely on luck. So her name is Eca....



She is so cute.



We did let the momma keep her name.(Callie)



Momma hasn't quite adjusted yet.

01:12 Feb 25 2008
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I'm getting my kitties today. One is an older one and the other one is a baby. ^_^



I'm so happy. I have animals to love on now.

06:19 Feb 22 2008
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LMAO

06:49 Feb 21 2008
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Tomorrow is a new day. I shall keep my head up and focus on what I need to do. Not dwell on the negative.

01:59 Feb 21 2008
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I might be getting a couple of cats.



^_^



I hope we can get them. I love animals.

05:45 Feb 20 2008
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It just isn't worth it for me anymore.



I'm about to just give up.

00:53 Feb 20 2008
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Oh I took a preggie test today.



I am NOT pregnant.



Though I will take another one in a week just to be sure.

18:29 Feb 19 2008
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This is what I looked like before I found hair dye, sobriety, and actual love.







This is what I look like now. The picture is about a month old.

07:26 Feb 17 2008
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OMG I just like burped/puked up acid.



I have never done that before.



Not to mention my heart burn won't go away no matter what I do.



And now I feel like throwing up.....



T_T



If I'm with child I want that fucker out....NOW

23:16 Feb 16 2008
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I wonder why when I have heartburn I seem to crave acidic food.



Hmmm



Well I have heartburn and I want spaghetti for dinner.

18:43 Feb 15 2008
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My nips hurt really bad.



I don't even want to touch them. Not to mention since the fact I may be pregnant I have been trying to sleep better and actually eat during the day.



I really hope we can get the extra cash to get me a test. Because if I'm not pregnant I want to know what is wrong with me.

04:01 Feb 15 2008
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So it is almost over. I have never really liked this holiday for different reasons.



Freshman year-Got arrested on Valentines Day

Sophomore year- Woke up in a hospital room after being raped, dealt with parents.

Junior/Senior year-Attended one of my best friends funerals.

Last year-Was in rehab



This year-Made dinner, dressed all nice, and sat there watching tv....



Hope everyone else had a great day.

22:26 Feb 12 2008
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So I get a knock at the door and it was UPS. Apparently Verizon decided to send us a new modem.



We told them over and over that we weren't having problems with the modem and they expect us to pay to ship the modem that doesn't work back..



Problem is, the modem works fine. We had a modem in the box, never been opened and after the 3rd call in we decided to hook it up and see if that would help.



The same shit happened with a brand new modem.



I'm fucking sick of waiting for Verizon to get off their ass and do their job. They keep telling us that its probably not hooked up right.



-.-



My finacee used to do tech work for AOL and I can do some scary things with a computer. Do not tell me that things aren't hooked up right.

20:37 Feb 12 2008
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Here are the 2 warnings I just got for tornadoes...

Mind you I live in Tampa( Hillsborough) and my family lives in Lakeland(Polk county)

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Issued at: 3:20 PM EST 2/12/08, expires at: 11:00 PM EST 2/12/08



Tornado watch 53 is in effect until 1100 pm est for the following

locations Fl ., Florida Counties Included Are:

Alachua, Bradford, Brevard, Broward, Charlotte, Citrus, Clay, Collier,

Desoto, Duval, Flagler, Glades, Hardee, Hendry, Hernando, Highlands,

Hillsborough, Indian River, Lake, Lee, Levy, Manatee, Marion, Martin,

Miami-dade, Monroe, Okeechobee, Orange, Osceola, Palm Beach, Pasco,

Pinellas, Polk, Putnam, Sarasota, Seminole, St. Johns, St. Lucie, Sumter,

Volusia.







Issued at: 3:31 PM EST 2/12/08, expires at: 11:00 PM EST 2/12/08



The NWS Has Issued Tornado Watch 53 In, Effect Until 11 Pm Est This

Evening For The Following Areas

In Florida This Watch Includes 15 Counties

In Southwest Florida

Charlotte, Lee

In West Central Florida

Citrus, Desoto, Hardee, Hernando, Highlands, Hillsborough, Levy,

Manatee, Pasco, Pinellas, Polk, Sarasota, Sumter

This Includes The Cities Of, Arcadia, Avon Park, Bradenton,, Brandon,

Brooksville, Bushnell, Cape Coral, Cedar Key,, Chiefland, Clearwater,

Crystal River, Fort Myers, Inverness,, Lakeland, New Port Richey, Port

Charlotte, Punta Gorda,, Sarasota, Sebring, Spring Hill, St. Petersburg,

Tampa,, The Villages, Venice, Wauchula, Winter Haven And Zephyrhills.

20:23 Feb 12 2008
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I swear today isn't going too good.



I woke up late, I have a headache, and now there is a fucking tornado watch...





-.-

18:55 Feb 11 2008
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Well for once in the odd moment I actually got to sleep in really late. I have been needing to do that and since I was up and awake until about 6am...I think sleeping until 1 is acceptable.



I may take a nap later though, I don't really feel that great...





Oh and I'm getting a test on Wednesday to see if I am with child.



*sigh* I almost feel that just because of my mental problems that I'm going to be an unfit mother.

07:23 Feb 11 2008
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So yeah.. I think I'm pregnant....





*runs away*

19:33 Feb 10 2008
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I fucking hate verizon.



I have been having issues with my internet for the last 3 days, I call them and the guy just kept saying I see, I see. When he told me to go to internet options I wanted to just reach through the phone and smack him.



He never asked what browser I use and was assuming that I use IE. When I told him I use Firefox he pretty much ended the call right there.



-.-



I thought tech guys are trained for Mac, Linux, Windows and all other browsers to boot.

Umm yeah ok
19:05 Feb 09 2008
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So about 10 minutes ago I heard a knock on the door. These random church people were standing there and they handed us a bag of canned goods.



They were trying to get us to go to their church and said that they wanted to bless us with food....





Then they asked if we had any prayer requests...I let John deal with that. I really just didn't talk. They prayed....I stood there.



Umm yeah, I'm confused like hell now.

04:09 Feb 09 2008
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*sigh*



No reply from Jonathon about last night. I hope that he understood what I was saying to him about our friendship. I love him, but I don't love him. He is my best friend and I want him to understand I do care about him.



I hate men sometimes. They can worse then women when it comes to emotions.

21:49 Feb 08 2008
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I want to eat my hands. They smell really good because I was just playing with my meat..



I rubbed it really good and put herbs and garlic on it.



Oh and that sounds really wrong...



Damn

20:58 Feb 08 2008
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So I pull out this nice London broil for dinner. I have it all ready to get started cooking. Nice and slow...



I call my mom asking for an idea what to cook with it and she kindly reminds me that it is Friday....and I can't have meat...



I may not be practicing Catholicism anymore, but some traditions just don't go away..



Any ideas on how to cook fish?



I don't eat it so I don't know....

17:29 Feb 08 2008
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I know it isn't my fault really, but I can't help but to think I had something to do with it all.



Life hasn't treated either of us right lately and for you to go so long waiting on me to realize that, I can only feel that the blame rests with me.



I am the one that you took in when I had no place to go, then I left out of that life on a Greyhound bus to my new life. You said good bye to me and cried with me. I can only feel that this has something to do with that day. I may have moved on to a new life but I never forgot the old friends and the good times.



Shocker, TSO at 4 in the morning, Wired Warriors, Toxic Hell, and fucking the couch up...I remember it all. You may not know this and you may never see this, but I am really sorry for all that I have done.



You are a great friend and a great person..

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*sigh* I want to say all of that to my best friend, but I just can't. I needed to get that out somehow though.

10:08 Feb 08 2008
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Have you ever felt that you were the reason for losing something you held so dear?



Have you ever wanted to say your sorry but couldn't?



Have you ever wanted to just let your tears go because you realize you hurt someone you care a lot about?



If you said yes to these, then you know exactly how I feel right now. I feel so bad about it, but I know its not my fault.



I just feel like I'm losing my best friend and I don't need that right now.

04:53 Feb 06 2008
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So today I got up late and then my friend Derrick wanted to go job hunting. We walked the mall and talked about how much of a man whore he is and then left the mall.



We did apply at a few places, it was funny to watch him call 411 for a reference number.



I hope I get a job.

07:54 Feb 05 2008
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I have some sweet plans for me and the teddy bear on Valentines day.



It involves a nice dinner, a scrabble board, and hopefully chocolate.



I hope he likes it.





Oh I know he can see this, he can know about it. I'm bad at hiding things.

01:59 Feb 05 2008
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As of late I have felt a bit out of it. I don't pretty myself up, I don't even bother to do my hair, I don't even shave my legs. I'm more content to sit and listen to my music and not care.



I feel that this has severely messed certain aspects of my life up. I miss those aspects a lot and I don't know what to do to get them back. Its like everyday I'm just going through the motions. I need something to occupy my time better I guess.



I'm running out of ideas for graphics, can't really think of anything to do to keep me busy, and I abhor movies and TV.



I guess its my depression taking over.

03:13 Feb 04 2008
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Am I like the only one in this world that doesn't care about the Super Bowl?



The only good thing for me is the commercials and I can youtube those.



Hmm good thing hockey lasts longer than football each year.

Thoughts I share with my B/F
02:13 Feb 03 2008
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Here is a stupid survey my best friend posted a few nights ago. In purple are my reactions to each one. I sent those back to him and got him somewhat smiling.

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Your ex is on the side of the road, on fire. What do you do?

-Depends on what ex, call for help, or laugh out loud(oh the irony, for those who don't know, my ex tried to set me on fire, no shit)Do I know her? I'm pretty sure it would have been hard to set you on fire.



Your best friend tells you she is pregnant. What is your reaction?

-HOLY SHIT I'm not pregnant so don't worry. It can't happen yet and you know that.



When is the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?

-Before I got my mind back together, and before I started Prozac What about that one time at that one place?



What is the last thing you spent money on?

-Gas Well that is free...Just need some beans. :P



Who is the most attractive female on your Myspace friends list?

-She knows Aww I thought it was me



Do you think you gained or lost weight this past month?

-LOST SOME FUCKING WEIGHT!!!!! And I gained what you lost you fucker.



If you had to sleep with one of your teachers from high school, who would it be?

-Hell to the NO EWWW Now I see Mr. Barton nekkid



Congratulations! You just had a son. What's his name?

-Bronson Like a manly man



Congratulations! You just had a daughter. What's her name?

-Aria, it's a music term Not if I have her first. You got that name from me dammit. Find your own term you musician you.



What are you craving right now?

-Seseme chicken, but I had it for lunch, but it was awesome, and I will probably have it for lunch tomorrow No ramen? I'm sad now



What was the last thing you cried about?

-When i realized I was me anymore, and I had lost control of my life and who I was. Umm I didn't have a thing to do with that. *sneaks away*



What do you order when you go to Taco Bell?

-A lot And those damn potatoes. You can never forget my potatoes



What is the last alcoholic beverage you had?

-Peach Fresca, it was great Well its Peach, what do you expect?



Are you happy right now?

-Content, but in no way happy Your never happy



Do you drink beer?

-Not really, But there are a few good ones, and many more to try, but not really.

Liquor or bust bitch

When is your birthday?

-Dec. 29th Haha mines first...wait your older...fuck



How many states in the US have you been to?

-A lot. Since when is a lot a number?



What kind of milk do you drink?

-Chocolate or Skim That just is messed up in its own way.



Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?

-Not really No you have the same name as most of the males in the world.



What color is your couch?

-Got a white leather and a brown leather I remember that blue one we broke, I wonder why they got the new ones?



Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?

-Me and my Dad, but only on the phone

Thats really hard to do, you 2 look completely different.

Favorite pop-tart flavor?

-Smores. Word



Do you know anyone in jail/prison?

-used to *hides* It wasn't my fault and you know it.



What are your plans for the weekend?

-Not die Those are good plans



Do you like the color green?

-It is my favorite color And the color of your car if I remember right, or was it the food in your car?



Who was the last person to send you a text message?

-Criss Bell Well I see how it is



How many hours did you sleep for last night?

-6 or 7 Sleepy head



Do you swear at your parents?

-yes, but NEVER around my Mother She would whoop your arse.



Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

-NO I was you tard



Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?

-Yeah, it was funny Didn't work too well either



What were you doing at midnight last night?

-Nothing You had to be at least breathing.

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Sorry I am really bored and wanted to share this with everyone.

00:30 Feb 03 2008
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The best thing ever created is coffee.





I don't care, you can add anything to coffee to make it amazing.

07:09 Feb 02 2008
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The eye is twitching, the vision is blurry, I'm thinking its getting a bit late.





Yay for comfy beds and people you can snuggle up next to when its cold.





Oh and double yay for the coffee to keep people awake and warm.

21:40 Feb 01 2008
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My mom came over for a bit today. She brought my little brother and I got to snitch him out. He hid his shitty report card in his pocket and I snatched it out and when in the car with my mom I showed her it. She was livid. He was doing a great job and all his grades fell. Not a good thing.



Lets hope I didn't ruin his next few weeks with that stunt.





But now he can't torture me anymore. I don't live with him. HAHA

15:50 Feb 01 2008
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I am so tired and I just woke up. I have to stay awake because my mom is coming over this morning. (Yayness) She is bringing creamer so thats a good thing. But I think I'll have to go wake John up soon so he is decent when she shows up.

05:08 Feb 01 2008
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03:38 Feb 01 2008
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Just finished watching American History X. It is one of my favorite movies and I always choke up when watching it.



I just think the whole thing is a good movie.